My Reality... For Now

I've been dancing for years. At times, that has been all I have ever wanted to do. I've put dancing at the top of my priority list, leaving so many important things behind. Dancing has always been a high for me; an escape from the world. When I'm on the stage, the only thing that matters to me is that moment. And when I'm in that moment, I become a part of something else. It's a very free and fulfilling experience. I never thought that there would come a day when I would be able to give it up.

I am still dancing, but something deep inside of me is telling me that there is something else that I'm supposed to be doing with my life. Realistically, I won't be able to dance forever... although if there were some way that I could, I would. My situation is not the same anymore. When I first started dancing, all I had to worry about was myself. Now, I am married, and I have to think about us. Don't get me wrong, I love my husband, it's just that being married makes things a little more challenging. And somewhere during my marriage, I have found peace in the thought of not dancing to pursue a different goal.

So I've been really thinking about what I like and what I'm passionate about and several things came to mind: animals, travel, and the earth. I want to be able to travel all over the world and study animals and nature. But to do this, I have to go back to school. And to go back to school, I would have to quit my job which would leave my husband and I very broke.

My reality can seem very dreary, but I am not discouraged. I will figure out what I need to do to get to where I want to go. I refuse to give up on my dreams. Until then, I will continue to dance and find comfort on the stage that I love. Just that is enough, for now.